The path to God has no one direction, and therefore the wise are always advised to abandon the trial of others for their mistakes as long as life continues, and no one knows how his life or the lives of others will end.
Women's participation in a cruel industry such as pornographic filmmaking usually has its psychological causes, which you can not talk about. You can not see it on their faces in the porn scenes, where layers of cosmetic colors have been established that conceal the reality of harsh childhood, Or other traumas that prompted the actress for one way or the other, but this is not the end, not the bottom that is impossible to climb, there are many women who came out of the experience of pornographic films and continued their lives better.
This report will tell you stories that have already occurred about the retirement of more than one woman from the world of porn, more than a woman who chose "the way of God" as they called it, despite the signs of money, fame and admirers who decorate other ways.
Nadia Hilton is a former Borno star and currently a priest
What happened is a comprehensive change of my life, to the contrary, was to get rid of my previous life completely. * Nadia Hilton's media statement
She has participated in the 100-year-old pornographic film for over 10 years, earning more than a quarter of a million dollars a year. Nadia Hilton, or Kristall Past, a former actress in pornographic films, has a remarkable experience that attracted US media attention at the beginning of 2017, As "a woman born again on the Christian religion".
A girl at the age of sixteen, carrying a child does not want to give up, and did not have the qualifications of the functional beauty, so I worked in the fashion and dance to provide enough money to raise her first son, did not go many years until I met Crystal one of the producers of pornographic films, More than 30 thousand dollars. Crystal agreed and chose herself Nadia Hilton, and after filming the first scene - as I mentioned - she spent only hours in her bathroom, crying trying to wash the colors and sweat on her body, and shocked her soul.
Hilton took the first step in the road that provided her with all the luxury she loved, sports cars, wines of the finest species, drugs and sedatives, enough to numb her mind and soul to continue in this field, without real awareness or feelings, which was her first relationship with her parents. A surrender to the fait accompli after a few years.
As the years went by, Kristall's film production increased, and the lavish sums afforded her luxury; she did not realize at the moment that she had become just a sexual instrument . Even in her normal life, her clothes and appearance had turned into one goal: arousing instincts, I realized that painful truth. From that time on, Crystal's life began to change when she was hit by a "terrifying" car accident, as she described it, but at the same time it was a divine cry to awaken her from the lifestyle she and her family were destroying.
In a moment of despair, I went to the churches with her family to seek help. I felt that the preacher speaking in the church, as if he were talking about her in particular, and most importantly, she said , that she realized that "God is the one who speaks through this preacher." , And affected the spirit of a significant influence, until she found herself - as I told the media - kneeling on her knees, crying and calling God peace, and was an influential position until her sister and her mother began to cry with her , and they pray for it. "On this day God saved me," says Crystal.
Media - kneeling on her knees, crying and calling God peace, and was an influential position until her sister and her mother began to cry with her, and they pray for it. "On this day God saved me," says Crystal.
At the beginning of retirement, she met her current husband, who was a priest in one of the churches on which she hesitated, to support her psychologically, to trust in her choice and to encourage her. He always assured her that the past meant nothing to him and that what she had reached now was what he cared about and then married and married A child.
Later confirmed Crystal that it does not regret the past, because they are aware that she was sexually molested at a young age has had a negative impact on their choices fateful, but at that time, those wrong choices, are what now made her and her husband, manage their own church they founded Bmjhodathm own, Crystal's life - as I have explained before - turns from contrast to contrast, from a pornographic hero who earns thousands of dollars a month, to a priest who helps people and a housewife does her best to please her husband and children.
It was not easy on her husband or happened between day and night. He told the media that starting a new life after a painful past of working in the pornographic industry was difficult and needed the psychological and nervous effort to overcome this past, but he stressed that he was a cleric. He forgives human beings and asks us to follow the footsteps of Christ, and therefore give themselves a new beginning.
Chile Le Pen .. from participating in the industry of the .. to establish an organization to fight it
Do you know that Chile?! .. Everyone loves you now .. I will make you successful and famous.
This is what former pornstar actress Shelley Loben imagined the devil was calling her, and she was preparing to shoot a new sexual scene.
I Love Chile Le Pen in her childhood «God» with all its child of innocence and spontaneous, subjected to psychological trauma took her in a different way, and it began their exposure to sexual harassment by her colleague at the school and the brother of her colleague. The shocking incident, heavy on the spirit of a girl, shook her confidence in God - as she told the media - and entrenched in her conviction that «sex is the only expression of love», and traumatized one by one, until she reached the age of adolescence is sexually dispersed, Of financial distress, and here appeared the first offer, which she described as «easy money» when offered to work in prostitution.
It began with Shelley's prostitution, until she reached the location of the first pornographic film in her life, which she described as "the day she felt the presence of evil or the devil more clearly than the intrusion into the world of prostitution." Despite the safe legal way of acting in pornographic films, Chile felt that it was a more dangerous and cruel profession than prostitution, and much of the heart of Chile did not lose touch with God - she said - but I also made it clear that her confidence was fragile at that time. This communion with God manifested itself in some of Chile's fateful decisions, such as her rejection of abortion and her decision to raise her daughter, who was taken from one of her clients while she was engaged in prostitution;
In every scene, the voice of God echoed within her asking her not to complete this path. When she ignored this voice, the divine will intervened and Chile suffered a serious sexual illness and took drugs as well as a car accident that nearly ended her life. ? She thought her fate was bound to hell.
But at the time she met her husband, who was initially just a drug addict and tried to help each other through communion with God. She confirmed that when she first took the steps to God, she recovered from sexual illness, helped her husband recover from abuse, They started together a small family and gave birth to another child.
It was not easy at first. This is what Chile told in one of her media meetings. She had to get used to a new way of life in which a housewife and mother had many household chores , life without lights, love of others, fame and money , I ' 's That' 's HIV a summer, That 's Osastant, That Assis. Many occasions that support the same issue.
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I had to fight the ghosts of Satanic past, to move forward in my life.
The biggest challenge facing Chile was not disease or family life, but it was the ability to forgive others and forgive itself. Chile's angry heart carried her family and everyone around her, carrying her guilt on her way, feeling her cheap, and she described herself as "dirty!"
So she had to get rid of her fear of God before she believed that he had forgiven her, and then tolerated her with the realization that guilt was not only theirs, and the last and most important step was forgiveness of herself, the step that inner peace gave her, From the dark scenes of making pornographic films when she wrote a book called " Truth Behind the Fantasy of Porn " and founded with her husband the Pink Cross Foundation , an organization that fights prostitution and pornography.
Crissy Outlaw .. From pornographic films to preaching
Hello! I'm a crispy, and in the past I was a pornographic actress.
This is the sentence in which Krissy begins a sermon at all the social events she attended after she retired from acting in the pornographic films. Crissy Otello, like many porn stars, has been sexually harassed since her fourth year by one of her neighbors, And her father, who lived with him after her divorce from her mother, was entrenched in her religious values that oblige the girl not to have sex until after marriage, which has torn a psychic crisscross between the two opposites imposed on her by her Around them, which is not age or maturity enough to do S between right and wrong.
The most pressing question, after many incidents of harassment, was: "Why is it easy for people to touch my body without fear of the consequences?" The only answer she later found was that she was the main reason for pushing the harasser to violate her body, so she did not tell her father, Thinking that they are wrong, and the difficulty of understanding with the father in the normal things in life.
Krisi lost her virginity at a young age, and was carried away by the man who refused to marry her. She had to undergo an abortion, a harsh experience she described to the media: "I felt that someone was sucking my life out of my soul, my school colleagues avoided me and the experience as a whole was arduous and harsh. To get rid of psychological problems and severe depression, resulting in isolation and away from her father.
Added to her suffering and linked to a man who became addicted to watch pornographic films, and took control of those movies on his life and was forcing her to imitate what you do actresses Alborno, this man has contributed a negative contribution to their self - confidence, and therefore conducted an augmentation cosmetic chest, even resemble stars of pornographic films who Ihbehn her boyfriend, she said "One day I will be one of those actresses I love."
The first time she sexed in front of the camera for money, Krisy described the "terrifying" experience and working in the pornographic industry was profitable, earning at least $ 15,000 a month, but the glamor of money and admirers did not completely overwhelm Kressi's psychological suffering, Seeking love and appreciation in the wrong places with people who are not qualified to give feelings together.
At one point in her life, when she was used to money, fame and success, she revealed the psychological deformity that the profession had left in her soul. She found herself wandering, not knowing the way to go if she left the world of pornographic films. She did not know where to look for love. Go to God by praying.
O God, if I were present, if you were really looking after us, he would show me a sign, because all that I learned about love was wrong, I want to feel your reflection in my life, this transfiguration that I lost in my youth
The next day, literally, Krisi met a man she knew good-natured about, talking to him and telling him that she was a pornographic actress, and expected him to be averse. But he asked her a question - as she told her story to the media - When she saw her tears, he asked her the question that made her what she is now: "Do you want to consecrate your life to God?" At that moment, Crissy felt that God had made her cry. Speak to her.
This is what Crissie did, despite the physical consequences she faced, but she continued her psychological treatment with the doctors and the spiritual treatment with the church, until she married a pastor in the church she was hesitant about, and after a hard work I talked about in more than a news and television interview ; Cresy was able to help those with similar experiences, through religious preaching, citing her personal experience as a vivid example of man's ability to return to God no matter how long he lost.
Gina Presley: «I did not fuck my husband and I only after the wedding»
During the last year of "Gina Presley" or "Britney Rose" in the making of pornographic films, the media called her the most attractive actress in the world of the porno, based on nearly 300 pornographic films that participated in their seven-year series, , Which caused her psychological pressure to pay to the doors of alcohol and drugs, especially as she joined the industry as soon as she reached the age of eighteen, while the directors tried to show her at a younger age, which she described as "defiant."
I tried to return to the "way of God" in the presence of some lessons in the church where I met a religious man and his date but he was killed in front of her by a bandit, which led to more pornography, drugs and attempts to commit suicide, even signed the same sign on one of the events of pornographic films, "Christ loves porno actresses," she later realized that the signatories of an association called XXXchurch opposed the exploitation of women in pornographic films. With the help of the staff of this association, Gina quit working on pornographic films, but at the same time she was not sure about The road on which I have delayed Take it after this decision.
When your life descends to the bottom of the sane, you will find no other direction to look at except above, to God.
* One of Gina's comments about her retirement
The message that Gina wants to send to the world, via her blog , is the ability of anyone to curtail his sexual desires. "If I - a pornstar actress - can do it, of course anyone else can," Priscley and her husband, Sex only after the wedding.
And recounted the whole story in a blog post titled: «Why did you choose to have sex with my husband after the wedding?», Which stated the gratitude of the fact that her husband sanctifies God like her, and that the marital relationship , bringing peace to them and tranquility because of the Aknuh of respect for God and the teachings of his religion.
At first , Gina did not want to share her story with the world for feeling shameful about her past life, but on a day she felt that there was a higher spirit talking to her. "Look at Christ crucified, he tortures and humiliates for you, is not that enough for you?" In that spirit I encourage her to help people and to liberate them from the belief that the greatness of sin makes it impossible for man to return to God. At that moment when she imagined Christ suffering, her heart was torn from the idea and she decided to tell the whole world how merciful God included all human beings, Even those who are misled and descended to prostitution, drugs and attempts to kill the soul, the Its opening the door all the time for mercy and love. This is how Gina saw "God".